How to quit your job. Seneca, Epistles 3.22.1-4
Seneca
tells Lucilius how to go about divesting himself of business when the
latter proves bad. Note that malum
(evil) here contrasts
with felicitas (happiness,
good fortune). Business can be very materially successful and yet
prove bad for happiness. That is precisely the kind of bad business
Seneca is most concerned with here. The kind so good, in conventional
terms, that it becomes bad for the soul, occupying our time and
overworking our emotions so that we have no joy in being alive.
Iam
intellegis educendum esse te ex istis occupationibus speciosis et
malis, sed quomodo id consequi possis quaeris. Quaedam non nisi a
praesente monstrantur; non potest medicus per epistulas cibi aut
balinei tempus eligere: vena tangenda est. Vetus proverbium est
gladiatorem in harena capere consilium: aliquid adversarii vultus,
aliquid manus mota, aliquid ipsa inclinatio corporis intuentem monet.
Quid fieri soleat, quid oporteat, in universum et mandari potest et
scribi; tale consilium non tantum absentibus, etiam posteris datur:
illud alterum, quando fieri debeat aut quemadmodum, ex longinquo nemo
suadebit, cum rebus ipsis deliberandum est.
Non tantum praesentis
sed vigilantis est occasionem observare properantem; itaque hanc
circumspice, hanc si videris prende, et toto impetu, totis viribus id
age ut te istis officiis exuas.
Et
quidem quam sententiam feram attende: censeo aut ex ista vita tibi
aut e vita exeundum. Sed idem illud existimo, leni eundum via, ut
quod male implicuisti solvas potius quam abrumpas, dummodo, si alia
solvendi ratio non erit, vel abrumpas.
Nemo
tam timidus est ut malit semper pendere quam semel cadere.
Interim, quod primum
est, impedire te noli.
Contentus
esto negotiis in quae descendisti, vel, quod videri mavis, incidisti.
Non est quod ad
ulteriora nitaris, aut perdes excusationem et apparebit te non
incidisse. Ista enim quae dici solent falsa sunt:
Non
potui aliter. Quid si nollem? necesse erat.
Nulli
necesse est felicitatem cursu sequi:
est
aliquid, etiam si non repugnare, subsistere nec instare fortunae
ferenti.
You
are already aware that you must be weaned off those business
associations you mentioned, which are evil though they make your life
a prettier public spectacle. Still, you aren't sure how to achieve
this, so you ask my counsel. There are things which cannot be
properly marked from a distance. A doctor cannot provide a schedule
for eating and bathing by letter: he must touch veins, take the
patient's pulse. The ancient proverb shows us a gladiator taking
counsel in the arena: the face of his opponent, subtle motions of his
hand, even the tilt of his body warn one who knows how to watch. The
general outcome—what
usually happens, what ought to happen—can
be ordered and published in writing for the entire world. Counsel of
this generic sort is given not merely to persons absent, but to
posterity yet unborn. There is more to consider, however: the
question of means and timing, how and when the desired outcome is to
arrive in particular circumstances. Here nobody can provide
persuasive counsel from a distance, as what matters is necessarily
close at hand, in concrete things that cannot be abstracted. You must
be vigilant, as well as present, if you are to notice your chance for
exit when it appears. Keep your eyes well peeled, watching every
corner of the horizon, and when you see the exit, go for it with all
the strength you have, stripping yourself loose from onerous
obligations.
Mark
well the counsel I give. As I see it, you have two options: quitting
your old life, or quitting life itself (by holding your current
position and dying where you stand). That being said, it is all the
same to me whether you quit slowly, carefully undoing knots badly
tied, or abruptly, breaking things off all at once, as long as you
don't take the latter course heedlessly. There is no one so timid
that he prefers always to hang dithering rather than fall once and be
done. Meanwhile, the first order of business is not to get in your
own way. Be content with the business whose depths you've already
dared to plumb—or
stumbled into on accident, as you may prefer to see it.
You should not pursue further adventures, or you will appear
unencumbered and lose all hope of release. The excuses folk typically
give are lies: "I had
no choice! Though I was unwilling, it was necessary!"
Happiness never requires pursuit by fixed course or career: on
the contrary, it asks you to stand still, to avoid provoking Fortune
as she brings your lot, even before you encounter its obstacles.